Wednesday, 21 January 2015

Searching for the God of my youth in church

After being a Christian for over 55 years,  the first 25 years of which I was an active member of the Salvation Army. During that time I served for 15 years in the Royal Navy and as part of the Naval Christian Fellowship, met and shared my faith with Christians from all denominations and none.  I now find it difficult to find a church to which I feel I belong and more importantly am accepted.    My wife Julia with whom I have been married now for 40 odd years and have 3 grown up children all Christians attending churches in Plymouth,  also now has no interest in church saying she finds no friendship there.

The disenchantment with church started in  2007 whilst living in Stroud Glos., First I had to put down my Labrador after 18 years as a family pet.   Shortly afterwards my father became ill and in March of that year died.  In June my mother did likewise.     5 months later (November) a very close aunt of Julia’s died.   A week or so later her mother died and 10 days later her father (just a couple of days before Christmas.)   Just to add to the fun of it all both Julia and myself lost our jobs when we were made redundant.    All in all 2007 was quite traumatic time and by the end of it we had put down our beloved dog Saffrin;  lost both mine and then Julia’s parents and in the middle of it all, lost our jobs.

And the church in all that time......., nowhere to be seen.    In fact we later found out, they were annoyed that when we got home after it was all over,  we did not go and visit them so they could comfort us.    Not one of the congregation in the church in Gloucester  where we had been active members for several years,  could travel the 10 miles to Stroud to comfort us.    We were though repeatedly assured we were in their prayers.    A Salvation Army Officer though dropped everything and travelled over 100 miles to spend an hour or so to pray with Julie the same day that he found out.    It was then I began to ask what was the purpose of church and began to say  “don’t pray for us,   pray with us.”

One thing the year did tell us though.    The church was right    Jesus was all we need.    For without God’s hand upon us.   His support and at times divine intervention how we would have got through 2007  I still don’t.   As for the church,   well.............................

Having now no reason for being in Stroud,  we returned to Plymouth and looked around our old stamping grounds for a church we could join.    This time though we were keen to find an answer to the question 2007 had thrown up.    What was the point of going to church if when it’s needed,  it is not there.   What is the purpose of church,  the answer to which no one is willing to tell me except to say the bible tells us in Hebrews 10 v25 not give up meeting together.    No one though is prepared to put it in context for v24 starts with “And let us consider how we may spur one another on toward love and good deeds, 25 not giving up meeting together as some are in the habit of doing, encouraging one another —and all the more as you see the Day approaching.”    The other thing they tell me is “ in order to worship God.” But where? there are at least 70 churches I know of in the Plymouth, Tavistock area.    And is that all there is to church.  An hour or so a week coming together to sing a few songs and worship God.    After 6 years of searching for an answer I have to agree with Julie.   There is no point.......   maybe one of you know different and could tell us why we are wrong after all these years not to go to church.


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