Friday, 20 February 2015

Notes I made in 2010 - As anything changed?

NEW WINE INTO OLD WINE SKINS   
Matthew 917 Nor do they put new wine into old wineskins, or else the wineskins break, the wine is spilled, and the wineskins are ruined. But they put new wine into new wineskins, and both are preserved."

Mark 222 And no one puts new wine into old wineskins; or else the new wine bursts the wineskins, the wine is spilled, and the wineskins are ruined. But new wine must be put into new wineskins."

Luke 537 And no one puts new wine into old wineskins; or else the new wine will burst the wineskins and be spilled, and the wineskins will be ruined.38 But new wine must be put into new wineskins, and both are preserved.39 And no one, having drunk old wine, immediately desires new; for he says, 'The old is better.' "

God is wanting to pour out His new wine into the church but it seems the leaders want to hang on to the old wineskins that is the way it has always been done,  the old rules and principles and are waiting for God to pour out His new wine into the wineskins they are holding up to Him.    Where is the fresh radical thinking.   The radicals of the past.

God laid on my heart a radical view of church which requires an hand to God and an hand to man or in the old Salvation Army motto “Saved to Serve” i.e. worship God and practical acts of service to men.    A couple of years ago God brought me back to Plymouth with a fresh stirring and passion to put that into practice with a vision for a new type of church in north Plymouth.    My first encounters in Plymouth were The Ark,  a community project running from a school in Widewell,   a children’s work in Belliver,  and the churches Carmel (now Engage) New Life and NPCC.

THE ARK.    A community project set up by the head teacher of Widewell Primary school,  mainly funded by NCF & Royal Sailors Rest (important connection for me seeing my Navy past and my son's present involvement although totally unknown by me at the time).     Set up following an Naval helicopter crash killing 8 marines all of whom had children in the school.   The need therefore for counselling and pastoral support for the wives and children at school.    How that came about the head teacher saw could only have been of God.    She also had a desire / longing for a church to operate from the school and looking for ways to bring that about.

THE CHILDRENS WORK.      Pete and Marlene  moved to a house in Belliver 20 odd years ago whilst members of PCC.   Ran a house group from their home and started working with the children from the area.    PCC pulled out of Belliver and Pete & Marlene consequently left the church but continued working with the children and now have 40 or so children coming to 3 different clubs they run from their home with great testimonies of how God has sustained their work.    They too were looking for God to set up a church in the area.

CARMEL.    I went into the church on the day in August 2008 that they announced they were taking over the small AOG church in Whitleigh and 30 of them would be going over to be part of a radical new church plant there.    My heart leaped and my spirit burned within me with a desire to be part of it.    After less than 10 weeks it became obvious the people they had hoped would go over did not want to leave their mother church.   Whitleigh AOG was (temporarily) closed down and everyone returned / started to go to Carmel.       In April 2009 they reopened the AOG in Whitleigh.   In recent months they have had a vision to sell the two church buildings (in Milehouse and Whitleigh) and have one large church in Whitleigh.  ( Later note.   They dropped that idea,  closed the AOG church and moved everyone back to Milehouse after renaming the Milehouse church "Engage.   A few months later sold the building in Whitleigh)

NEW LIFE.    I first met up again with New Life in November 2008 at a Crossline training day when 13 of them were taking part in a Crossline listening course.    13 people out of a church of around 50 involved in pastoral care!!   That seemed awesome.  A few weeks later I learnt New Life was moving into Widewell school with a view of starting a radical new type of church closely linked to The Ark and the children’s work in Belliver.    Although the intention was good and the vision God gave them is still as strong nothing further came of it.   The Ark has not developed any further than an aspiration by the project worker based at the school.    Likewise the children’s work in Belliver.    Shortly after New Life moved into the school,  the residents association in Belliver had a fresh burst of life and with the incentive of £70,000’s worth of funding from a legacy which was due to be lost if not used by the middle of 2010 is attempting to set up a community shop in the village.   Keith the pastor is awaiting the completion of that project and the children’s work moving into the building to provide the base from which New Life can grow.

NPCC.    Have had a tentative connection with NPCC from it’s birth in 1980’s  and both my sons being active members for 10 or 12 years.    In 2008 though the church had a totally different concept of church than the one I have always had.    We had therefore a fundamental difference of vision regarding church.    In around December 2009 at the Plymouth Foodbank’s AGM Wendy and Mike (lead members of NPCC) gave a presentation of an exciting new vision of project they were launching in January 2010.    That again stirred an excitement in my spirit and another confirmation of the vision God gave me in June 2008.     Reach and the satellite food bank has now been running in a small way for 10 months but a cofrontation with the minister of Central Methodist church and the manager of the Plymouth foodbank forced me to step down from the Foodbank and the lack of support from the NPCC leaders meant I was unable to become part of NPCC

Standing as it where on the outside it would seem no matter however hard I try, I cannot get involved with or become part of any of the churches much as my heart burns within me to do so.   So I stand as it were at the door of each knocking and asking to be let in but none will open to let me in as my radicalness does not fit in the old wineskins of the past.

Each of the leaderships believe the old ways of doing “church” is still the right way.   That membership requires an exclusive commitment to attend every and all meetings of that particular body.    To come into the congregation and act,  behave in a way that does not disturb, question or challenge the status quo or upset the most gentlest and quietest of the people there.    Over time the congregation then learns to accept then love you.   Only then can you be part of the church and the people listen to what God is saying through you and so able to be part of what is happening.      The drawback to that old way of doing church is it is no longer working.    It does not take into account what God could be saying nor does it address the needs and hurts of my own journey.

THE OLD WAY OF DOING CHURCH IS NOT WORKING:     In the last two years or so the church has shrunk still further.    Carmel (Whitleigh) had to close down and start again.    New Life’s congregation has halved and it’s hope is on the Residents Association being successful (and welcoming) in Belliver.   Both have postponed their visions until next year and the possible new buildings.    In the meantime talking to my son John the other day, he says that despite the size of the congregation there are few people to do all the task / work in hand,  thus the need for several complicated rotas.    Also although people say we should have this or need that when it’s put in place very few people attend/support it.    Keith says the same about New Life

WHAT GOD IS SAYING.    I am told time and time again to seek out God and listen to / do what He is saying.     Yet when I do there is no space or vehicle  for me to bring back to the leaders what I believe He is saying to me.    It would appear that God can only say what the leaders are thinking / saying or which fits in with their concept of church.    Either that or God can not possible say or do anything through me until I have changed and become acceptable in their sight.   Despite that God is slowly but surely putting place,  bringing about everything I have been saying over the past few years but either through blindness or bigoted they cannot see it.

NEEDS AND HURTS FROM MY OWN JOURNEY.    It is fine to say go away and wait or come back when you have changed.    Who is to help me to change if not the church.    If my posture,  mannerism language causes offense or upset,  if no one will come alongside and show me what is so upsetting about me and how it can be changed how can I change.   For instance Rob says my aggression comes out of frustration and so people avoid me.    Who is going to help me overcome or change that which is causing the frustration.   Without that help,  the frustration only becomes a bigger and bigger problem and people avoid me even more. 

Edward Noble

20th October 2010 

That help never came and so here I am,   in January 2015 still chasing the God of my youth in a church still trying to pour new wine into old oilskins

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